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[Oct. 21st, 2008|08:45 am] |
All I have been doing is smoking a ton of weed, sleeping, working, drinking, and I made plans to do a very ridiculous pill today: ecstasy. What the fuck happened to me.
What others me is, I am still totally functional. I am at work everyday on time, full of the energy I need.
The only two people who could really knock some sense into my head are in PA and Vegas. Fucking righteous.
P.S. (Justin Bristol will be the only one who knows what the hell I am talking about) WHY THE FUCK DON'T I LIVE IN PHILADELPHIA. Heartworm needs an intern, and it's all voluntary but I want it so so sooooo bad, to the point that I don't think whoever gets the chance will appreciate i as much as I would. |
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[Oct. 19th, 2008|06:16 pm] |
My gay roommate had a birthday and our drag queen friend Sam (Aunt Vivian) came over and dressed us. We got a handle of firefly and sky vodka... which is dangerous business. Then, as a result, we walked around 5 points.
...Stay in school and don't drink.
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| Sleeeeeeeeve. |
[Oct. 15th, 2008|10:50 pm] |
Sorry such shitty flash quality...
 
Blurry, but you get the picture. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2008|06:34 pm] |
EVERYONE take the time to educate yourself. Even if you don't agree, expand your knowledge! You might find something you really believe...
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[Aug. 27th, 2008|08:52 pm] |
I have lost touch with every single friend I have, basically.
My life is consumed with work, finding a form of transportation, and finding what the fuck I want to do with my life.
There is a Paul Mitchell school opening up in Columbia and I have never been so excited about anything as well as disappointed. I will never be able to find the money or the time, and everyone is suggesting loans and such but nobody understands: IT ISN'T IN THE CARDS FOR ME. I will never be able to pay those loans back.
I miss having a best friend. I just want somebody I can lay and laugh with and tell everything to without being judged. And I don't have the fucking time to do it. I do not have the time to have a best friend. Or many at all, it seems lately.
And I organized my room today and found old photographs of the house I grew up in and my father and my uncle and remembered how horrible everything was and how my mother is nowhere to be found in any of those pictures and the drugs and the abuse and the embarrassment.
I'll never be happy. |
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| Life lately. |
[Aug. 13th, 2008|10:03 pm] |
Since I lost my phone, I now have a 1992 Nokia basically and I hate it. It shuts off by itself all of the time, and when I respond to text messages it doesn't always work, and sometimes I don't receive them in the first place. Harpoon my skull.
In other news, I live in a 3 bedroom house across the street from Target. I made $75 at work today because I rule, and I am actually seeing somebody so to speak. We are polar opposites and had crushes on each other in high school. He is making me a book shelf because I needed one and painting it my favorite color, and since I never got to go to prom he is arranging one for just he and I. My life always fucking evens out, so I need to stop always talking shit about it.
I haven't made another doctor's appointment. And I know that's really bad and potentially fatal, but I'm just sick of being there all of the time. If cervical cancer is going to kill me, it'll kill me. You know?
I am more of a hermit than I ever thought I could be these days. And I never eat anything anymore, and I am constantly tired and weak because of it. I just forget to, and when I remember I am never hungry enough to finish a meal anyways. Ugh.
And last but not least, HELENA YOU NEED TO COME SEE ME. Drag Josh, Maura and Matt here before I shoot myself. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2008|06:53 pm] |
Oh and P.S. there are still large groups of cancerous cells actively growing in my cervix.
I have to go to the doctor every 4-6 months and they clip and scrape me and I bleed for a week afterwards. So that's what I get to look forward to for the next few years until they can stop it. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2008|06:34 pm] |
So I get to Vegas and within the first 3 hours I am here I lose my phone, this fucking chump blows me off (although I saw it coming, it still sort of surprised me), and Dana has to go to work only to later discover she works every day while I am here.
What
the
fuck.
Also, the plane ride was terrible. There was 2 babies, and the flight broads weren't even hot. They were middle aged. How the fuck am I not going to have total babes serving me small cups of ginger ale on my way to Vegas?
On a positive note, seeing the few people I have already really cheered me up. And I love them, and I probably will for the rest of my life. And I bought some of the cutest clothing I have ever seen.
On an even more negative note, I'm kicked out and my car key was taken hostage so I'm moving in with Tyler and Thor. Looks like I'll be riding a bike full time now. That's going to be really fun when work is already a 15 minute DRIVE. AND, before I left, I managed to fuck this up:
If I didn't have the few close friends I do, I would not be able to handle myself. |
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[May. 26th, 2008|02:24 pm] |
Tomorrow is the big day.
See yah later, cervical cancer. Hello biopsy and hours upon hours of crying with joy. |
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[May. 9th, 2008|07:26 pm] |
My hair was red but now I'm back to black, again.
I liked my job but now I hate it, again.
I was gonna keep $400 in savings but I'm getting tattooed, again.
I want to try to give you a chance but I'll probably turn and run, again.
Creature of habit I am. |
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[May. 8th, 2008|09:39 pm] |
Whadaaap.
If you have to ask, you'll never know. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2008|05:21 pm] |
I don't have the internet or a computer so I'm never on anymore.
All I can update about is that I'm a completely new person now. When something potentially life threatening happens to you, you look at things in a totally different view.
...That being said, I won't be a part in something YOU did to me 2 years ago. But I will say that karma is a motherfucker. The queen of nudes folders has one of her own. Sorry, girl. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2008|12:49 am] |
Shits whack, I'm moving to the ghetto, I hate everyone but I love beer.
( I lose. ) |
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[Jan. 24th, 2008|07:19 pm] |
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I have realized my biggest problem in life: what I fear, I create. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2007|12:19 pm] |
I'm a happy girl these days. |
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